Loved.

I am excited, I just found out this site isn't blocked at my work computer.
It probably wouldn't be as exciting of a find if I was a day-night shift person.
But since I'm overnight. . . I'll take any time consuming fun activity that I can.
Haha

So two things.

I live by this old beautiful church.
It's a wonderful example of architecture.
Complete with all the moldings, arches, and old gothic-y decor.
Love it.
What is even better, is that it has bells that sound at certain hours.
Every Sunday, they announce the begining and endings of services.
And on some hours, it'll chime out the time.
Beautiful.
It makes up for the stupid hospital down the street with it's loud ambulances.
And the fire station that must be somewheres around me as well,
those fire trucks are always making a ruckus too.
Saving lives, whatever.
So, if I ever get religous, sick or catch fire, I'll be in prime location for salvation.


Second thing.
I have an annoying characteristic of myself.
I am realizing it more and more.
I don't like people that like me.
I have a million crushes and I love being silly and giddy about liking people.
I love love.
However, when someone likes me back,
they become less attractive in my eyes.
I feel like I lose faith in them.
Or they become less 'cool' to me.
I think to myself:
I don't even really like myself half the time,
How can someone like me when I don't like me?
How can I live up to whatever opinion they have of me?
This is something I'm going to work on.
Let people love me.
Someone told me they liked me tonight.
And I'm really trying to stick with it.
I'm really trying to not loss interest.
I'm really trying not to screw it up.
But already, I feel some of the feelings leaving.
Ho hum.